I’m a Gen-Xer, and I Still Don’t Give a Fuck

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Which is very Gen X to say. I guess.

Gen Xer’s used to get a lot of crap, particularly by older generations. We were often told we are self-absorbed, lazy, and complained too much. And the fact that we didn’t give a fuck about what the older generations said really pissed them off.

We weren’t raised on or with much technology (like Gen Y, Z, and Millenials), but we had computers that sucked and flip phones. The ‘Crackberry, yeah that started with us.

There will always be a part of our demographic that paints us in the worst light, but that part does not give a fuck exactly as much as the “successful” part does not give a fuck. Much like I don’t give a fuck what baby boomers say or do, I don’t give a fuck what any other generation says or does either.

But here’s where I fall in line with Gen Xer definitions:

I’m bored silly most of the time.

I’m 44 years old, was married for a short time but now I just have a girlfriend, six cats, a dog, and a full-time job. I constantly feel like there is nothing fun to do and everything sucks. Mostly everything pisses me off, then I realize it’s stupid to be pissed, and stop giving a fuck about it. Then I am bored again.

I stopped doing drugs a while ago which really sucks, but all my connects are too old now. and I can’t find any reliable dealers in my age bracket. But oh dear lawd, how on earth am I supposed to keep up with all the soul crushing boredom? Then I remember I don’t give a fuck and I am basically happy again, or something like that.

I really don’t give a fuck about my work life or my family life.

I was raised to be focused on a career. The first in my family to go to college, there was a lot of pressure from my parents to get a good education and an even better career.

And also get married, have kids, and run a household. No big deal, right?

Except raising kids isn’t what it used to be. There are so many rules and expectations to not give a fuck about. You can’t just not give a fuck about little Johnny, send him outside and tell him to be back before dark — you either have to fear he will be snatched by some psycho, or (the more plausible) you will get CPS knocking on your door for child neglect.

Do this, don’t do that. Fuckin rules. We hate those fucking thing. It’s no wonder I don’t give a fuck.

But don’t forget about your career. You’re expected to give your all to your employer, while struggling to get your pants on in the morning. Rush the kids to daycare, but be here by 8:00 sharp. And rushing out the door before 5:00? Slacker. We fucking hate that word. Actually we don;t give a fuck about that word or any other word in case you hadn’t realized that yet.

I love my job and what I do, but I refuse to believe we are put on this earth to give a fuck. My family is my priority and there is no amount of money or benefits that will make me give a fuck. I really want a balance between the two, and our system is stuck trying to make me give a fuck, when I on the other hand, do not.

I’m still not afraid to question authority, but usually it’s way too much work and I don’t really give a fuck so I just let some Millennial asshole do it then take advantage of the advances they make or laugh when they get slapped down like the little punk dweebs they usually are.

There was never a time in my life when I kept my head down and followed rules blindly. I was never afraid to disappoint anyone. In fact I enjoyed it. That was unhealthy but luckily I didn’t give a fuck and still don’t.

I’m still not afraid to question why things are the way they are. However, If I disagree with something, I’m probably not going to bother saying it because it’s so much fucking work. Instead I’ll trick some nerd kid that’s on a crusade for something to do if for me.

Naysayers will say this is because I’m a dick.

I’m not running around committing crimes like every day is The Purge, that would be way too much fucking work. And I am not going to question why, outside of shift work, we pay people for their time and not what they produce. Why should I bother when some self righteous smart ass Millennial will do it for me.

Maybe our lack of giving a fuck about traditional or non traditional employer policies is why we get a reputation for being a bunch of ungrateful complainers. But I feel bored still. So very bored.

I’ve recognized that a happy life doesn’t consist of chasing salaries and titles. Hell, I recognized this when I was 16. Being fulfilled in life means figuring out what’s important to you and living your most honest life. For me and my fellow generation Xer’s the most important thing is to realize that nothing is really all that important, definitely not important enough to give a fuck about. I know who I am and what I want out of life, and for me, that’s not giving a fuck about anyone or anything, including myself.

So if you’re a fellow GenXer don’t be afraid to continue not giving a fuck. You know who you are and what you want out of life, so stand tall and remember the wise words of some asshole you don’t give a fuck about.

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Research scientist (Ph.D. micro/mol biology), Thought middle manager, Everyday junglist, Selecta (Ret.), Boulderer, Cat lover, Fish hater

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