Thank you for reading and commenting Vincent. The piece felt so inadequate in terms of content. Moreover it suffered from poor grammar and word choices, and the tone was all over the place. That said it was written totally from a place of love with no concern about the “proper” rules and/or aesthetics of writing.
I take your points about support. Luckily I have a strong network of friends/family and mental health care professionals to help me through this awful time. Thanks again for your kind words and for just caring. I am a total stranger to you, a nobody, and yet you still reached out and showed you cared. You are the type of person my wife would have loved. She would do the exact same thing always.