That was very good. So much of it rings true for myself. In fact it almost feels like I could have wrote it myself about myself (except for the Star Wars bit and the Madonna thing, lol!). Strange indeed. Well I have heard it said we all have a doppelganger out there somewhere.
Neutrality is a thing I have thought often about. Maybe because I was always fascinated by the idea as a kid playing Dungeons and Dragons. One could be evil or good, which of course most people chose, but there was a third option, neutral. That was the the one I liked the most then even though I could not really say why, but for whatever reason I almost always created characters with that moral aspect. The God of evil, Takhisis, from the Dragonlance books thought mortals must be subjugated and have order imposed on them, while Paladine the god of good thought order could be brought through education and learning and/or by example, while the God of neutrality, Gilean, believed that mortals had to be able to choose their own path to have order. Pretty geeky example I realize and I am not the fantasy fiction fan I once was but there was something so appealing about the simplicity of that system for me, and I really like the idea of choosing my own path.
People err when the equate neutrality with not taking sides or not having a position or an opinion. It is not that at all, rather it is about having the ability and the wisdom to choose any side, or no side, or the right side for yourself, and others that you care about when the time to take a side or have an opinion presents itself. In a sense it is relatively easy to be good, and even easier to be evil. One knows what is expected of them and does those things. Expectation of eternal reward (heaven) or fear of eternal damnation (hell) are very strong motivators to the good life for many. And to be evil only requires a total lack of empathy or care for anyone but oneself. Only the very wise can be neutral as it takes great wisdom to know when to be good and when to be evil, and even greater wisdom to have acquired the skills and abilities required to do or be either.
What was I talking about again? lol!